Appreciating the little things...

... just to hear the voice of someone you love!

Flight Gear

I ordered some flight boots, some gloves, and a warm flying jacket.  I am going to wait for the specs on the headset and flight suit - since I think it has to be a specific color (tan) and I don't know if the headsets are all universal.  They do seem to vary in price quiet a bit.

It snowed in Phoenix

As I was driving to get a haircut actual snow flakes were landing on my windshield.  To see snow in Phoenix is amazing.  Been checking out flight gear online and can't wait to get in it!

Wish I could sit in front of a warm fire I have been freezing all day - I miss the warmth!

Todays love song: Mindy Smith  "It's Amazing"

It is cold...

Winter finally made it to AZ, including Phoenix, last night.  It actually snowed at school, I wonder if I'll actually see snow while at school.  On a day like this, I really appreciate the seat warmers in the BMW.  I am going to miss that care come October.  In preparation, I have taken the VW to German Auto, to have them check her out and do any major repairs needed to make her road ready.
    Can't wait to say goodbye to 2010, I just wish it wouldn't be with a bunch of people I barely know - I am greatful they invited me, anyway.  I hope 2011 will let me get closer to the the ones I really miss and love.
     The work I had planned on doing this morning has to wait, since the tile guy is running a bit behind and I didn't want to wander around on his fresh tile.  Oh well I guess I have Friday and Saturday - might as well do something productive.
     I am so excited for orientation on the 14th!!!

Speaking of Scrabble

I downloaded scrabble for my iphone last week only to find out if you want to play others you have to have a FB account.  So I guess I did find a valid reason why one should have a FB account -Chopchop MW

     I am either still nursing a cold or am having side effects to my vaccine - somebody is going to turn in very early tonight.  Back to work early in the AM to finish my residential project - it is really looking good.  Can't wait to see the large format tile on the floors tomorrow.

Vivid dreams

I had the most vivid dream last night.  I was flying my helicopter with an inquisitive 6 year old next to me.  He had curly dark hair and freckles and couldn't stop asking questions as we were flying over rolling grassy hills in pretty flat country.  We came to a beautiful lake and I landed next to a log cabin.  I was a beautiful setting with the late afternoon sun bathing the scene in a warm glow.  The boy hopped out and said: "See you at dinner dad!  I love you!"


       As for thoughts on love today this artist was on the radio:  Stevie Wonder  " You are the sunshine of my life"  It is cold and rainy and a perfect day to cuddle up by the fireplace with a good book and the best company in the world - I miss you!  Maybe better yet a good game of scrabble :)

Have to get another vaccine

I guess I had the mumps to long ago so I need to get another shot.  Well that completes all paperwork for school so I am happy with that, hopefully I can still get a single room!

Orientation

Flight school orientation is scheduled for Jan. 14th.  I am excited, we'll be ordering our flight suites and headsets. I hear you loud and clear!  Sorry I am a nerd!  Almost done with the Rotorcraft Flying Handbook. Ready to read the R22 Handbook next.  I was reading the detailed course description for my flying course and didn't realize that we would already do a cross-country flight this semester - I am sure it will be at the end of the semester, but how cool is that!

More firsts....

I am sending my dorm room application.  I have never lived in a dorm in my previous 5 years.  I am somewhat uncomfortable with the idea of a roommate, but if it has to be it has to be.
     For my thoughts on love, I will once again borrow the words of the master story teller.   Bob Dylan was on my ipod today and he said it best. Just listen to: "Make you feel my love".
     Well I am excited to get started and it seems like these days are dragging on and are filled with finishing up two of my big projects.  I want to start the new year fresh without having to worry about them, so I hope to clean up the last little items and get on with what I really want to do.  I feel like it gives me the purpose and fills the hole in my heart I was born with and no person could plug.  Finally I will have a healthy heart that can love unconditionally and without fear.  A heart worth sharing!

Acts of kindness

I am still perplexed how one simple act of kindness and generosity can erase any doubt that I had about being loved.  I owe a big apology for ever having had an ounce of doubt, about who truly stands behind me.  I now know this with complete certainty - I only wish that it is not to late.  Thank you - you know who you are if you ever read this!  I hope you will allow me to be a part of ALL your dreams, and all the progress we made will not be lost.  I can see it all now like you described it, my period of not being able to see anything is over.  I now know what you went through when you couldn't feel or see the future.  I hope my visions of what I see are accurate, because they include you being married to a helicopter pilot.

THANK YOU!!!

She help me out in the biggest way possible to keep my dream alive and will co-sign my loan application for me - I cried at her generosity!  THANK YOU!

More good stuff...

I finally decide to call the company who I have my IRA accounts with directly since the financial advisor never returned my call.  I was able to pull $20,000 out for my school and may not even have to pay any taxes, but I had them withheld just in case.  The checks are arriving on Wednesday so I can set up my payment plan and will have my first semester fully covered :).  I am still waiting on the approval for my big loan and decided the day it gets approved I will quit smoking!  To dangerous around jet fuel!

Some good news...

My college accepted my petition and has reinstated my eligibility for federal financial aid!  The have a policy that anyone who already holds a BS degree is  blocked from financial aid, so this is a great step in the right direction for the finance department.  I was at Ikea today and saw this great floor that would look amazing on a certain fireplace as a wall treatment, wish I could share my idea with her...

Hot off the press, I just checked my portal and saw that I will be receiving $4,750 this semester in finacial aid!!!  Awesome!!

I miss...

I know my energy should not be on the lack off, rather on my intend for what I want in my life, but I do so miss being able to talk to that special person.  I did get to hear her voice today that was nice!  No news on the loan front yet.  It is cold and rainy today, which may explain my mood.  I got to see my doggy for a few minutes, he looks healthy and happy - I am glad!

Success!!

Well I have officially been accepted in the program with the condition that I get my loan approved. Now I am in a mad scramble for cash - the damage is $22,000 per semester!  Nice, but well worth it as long as I can get it accomplished.  Hopefully I'll have some good news in the next couple days.  Also looking to cash out my 401K as a possible option.  I can't give up now since I just accomplished something that normally takes 4-5 month in 3 weeks!!!

Off to Prescott to visit the campus

Going to meet with the financial advisor and the academic advisor today.  It will be my first visit to the campus as well - exciting!

Just for fun...

Songs I heard today that made me think of...

I was driving today and I heard a couple songs on my iphone that made me think of her.  I also feel that once I get to start fulfilling my childhood dream, my fears of having children will be gone - I think it is what always made me feel like something was missing and that I was not ready.  I hope this realization has not come to late!

The song list:

The levees gonna break


Times they are a changing


I will not take these things for granted 

Amazing Sunset

We had the most amazing sunset - which I could have been flying into it :)

Passed my drug screening today - no surprise, but another small step in the right direction.  I will post a pic of the sunset once I download it from my I-phone.

hmmm....

Today is one of those days when the sky is full of contrails, it makes me think of being in the sky doing what I was meant to do - and of her.  She loves contrails....

A few more baby steps...

I am now the proud owner of a Medical Certificate Second Class and Student Pilot Certificate and should be receiving my conditional Acceptance Letter to the Prof. Helicopter Pilot Program which will result in an Associates Science Degree in Professional Aviation.  I also had my transcripts reviewed and received 20 General Education Credits, which means I do not have to take any General Education Courses!!!  I am going to visit the School next week to meet with an Academic Advisor and the all important Financial Aid office.  Here is a link in case anyone will ever read this blog and has the desire to learn about the school or at least watch the cool intro video:

guidance helicopters

So this leaves me just one more hurdle - Money, but I have spent so much time feeling myself in that cockpit that I know it will come!

A small but significant step tomorrow

Tomorrow it is time for my FAA Medical and Drug test, another piece for the puzzle.  I received some of the literature I ordered today and have already read 1/4 of the "ROTORCRAFT FLYING HANDBOOK".  I feel like a nerd for saying this, but I think it is a page turner! LOL
Got all my paperwork into the school and my transcripts are being reviewed as well as my FASA documents.  Sending all my positive energy towards receiving a positive result - show me the money!


Side note: Still feel like I have a huge hole in my heart! Hope it won't affect my flight status ;)

A not so private move for a very private individual

I am not sure what has come over me to share my upcoming journey on the web.  Perhaps it will inspire some to want and pursue their wants.  Perhaps it will be entertaining to some.  Perhaps it will allow me to share when I am alone.  Perhaps the ONE will read it and care.  I am in love with the idea of flying - I am heartbroken with the idea of love.  Cryptic-yes I guess I tend to be, but I am learning to love all of me so no apologies!